Dwelling on the depressing so I can get it out of my system.

a list of the negatives in my life:
I'm balding, which means in 10 years I'll look distinguished, right now I just look like I spend to much time with my head in my hands.

My VCR died. Yesterday,itjust decided to stop working, and due to the next item on the list I can't afford a replacement.

I'm unemployed. Of the last four jobs I've had, I lost 3 of them due to a lack of work. The other one was because I wanted to work someplace new so I might be able to make enough to pay for my college loans.

I have no money. Due to unemployment, moving expenses and just trying to stay alive I went through what little money I was able to save this summer.

I just found out that I need glasses. All of my life my eyesight has been really good, 20/15 or so. Including the last time I went to renew my license. But when I went to get my physical my left eye was 20/40 and my right was 20/30. More money I don't have.

I can't find a place to cash my unemployment checks in the town I just moved to. Since I don't have enough money to start an account anywhere, and the checks are written on an out of town bank. Which also means I don't have the money to pay my rent.

Ok, begin the pity so I don't have to do it myself. I'm sick of it. it's gotten boring...

Stuff to think about.

Being unemployed is the worst thing that can happen to me. Or to anyone who prefers to work than to loaf around doing nothing. When I'm working I tend to spend more time writing etc. Whereas when I am unemployed I don't. the sense of urgency is just not there.
The old adage in this case is true; If you want something done, give it to someone who is busy.

My girlfriends breasts glisten in the sun

This has no bearing on my posting for the day, just looking to pique your interest you sick voyeuristic pervert.

On Monday I have to go for my first pre-employment drug screening. This irritates me, for a couple reasons. First, I am being accused of commiting a crime, merely because I am applying for employment. The message pre-employment screening sends is, "You applied to work for our company.. you must be high."
The second reason it bothers me is we have allowed our corporations to collect and analyze our bodily fluids. The idea that someone wants my urine is mildly disturbing. The idea that my urine is more important than my skills and abilities in assessing my value as a potential employee, is extremely worrying.
Imagine if you will...

"I'm sorry "Superman", you have super strength, x-ray vision, you can fly, are impervious to heat, bullets, cold and the deep vaccuum of space... but apparently you and Aquaman have been experimenting with the hydroponics, so we are unable to employ you as a security guard."

This is my hell, I'm sorry you all have to live here.

iradikation of mispelink

Since I am currently not online at home I need to use my girlfriends laptop and campus connection. which means that instead of using a normal sized keyboard I am trying to get my big fingers to try and find the litle keys. Thus misspellings are more common. I just spent an hour proofreading an e-mail for a prospective job. grrr.. ah well, with any luck I'll soon either be employed or have found a way to oay for grad school and I can go back to typing on a normal keyboard. Hope springs eternal.

Random example of stupidity

I have applied to the local state college in the town I have moved to as a graduate student. . I am still awaiting official confirmation of my acceptance, or lack thereof. However the Chair of the department did send me a quick e-mail which contained the following statement:
"The graduate program at WIU is an MFA, not a Masters."

Hmm... So the master of fine arts program is not a masters program... I'm having serious doubts as to the integrity of the program.

Moved

I have finally made it off of the East coast. I'm now stuck in the midwest looking for work instead of Upstate NY. Yep.. big improvement.
There's less snow.